Well, I went to Europe in September, and I probably would have stayed there had Craig not knocked me up right before we left. So I went for a few weeks. Then I went to Vancouver and visited my grandparents and my best friend from childhood, Mitzi. The week after I got back, I had an abortion.
Most tramatic experience ever. I'm never doing it again.
Craig and I did end up getting back together. Breifly. I moved back in with him in December and stayed there till March, when we had a big fight and I went to work. Then I stayed at my sisters place that Saturday night. Woke up Sunday and went to work. While I was at work Craig, along with Kira and my supposed best friend Alyson packed up my shit and drove it to my sisters. I thought we were having a fight, turns out he didn't see it that way.
On the following Friday I went to my usual hangout and was told by my other friend Maggie, that Alyson (the dirty little whore that she is) was making out with Craig. A whole 24 hours before we broke up. But it's ok, they were drunk. Or at least that's the excuse they were using.
I cried for 2 straight weeks. Work gave me some time off. One of my co-workers sat in the emergency room with me on her day off while I waited to talk to someone. I hadn't slept in a while and kept popping sleeping pills to try to sleep but they would only knock me out for an hour tops. So I took the whole bottle. You're probably thinking I'm crazy right now. I was pretty close. I'm better now.
I work at Perkins now. I'm a manager there. Best job I've ever had. Started there on January 20th, 2007.
In what started out as a stupid attempt to make Craig think I was still the one for him, I decided to go back to school. I start May 7th in the faculty of science at the University of Manitoba. It's no longer an attempt to get him back. It's more of an attempt to show myself just how fabulous I am. I'm so smart, it amazes me just how stupid some of the choices I've made really are. I'm thinking I'll finish my science degree and apply for medical school. I know I could get in.
I've been talking to this guy from my old job at CAA, Nick. I've had a bit of a crush on him for about as long as I've known him... 2 years or so. He seems like a really nice guy and even though I'm still bitter and a little aprehensive about the whole love thing I think I just might give him a try. We've had some pretty good conversations over MSN in the last couple days (he's in Holland visiting family till this wednesday), and he always sends me cute text messages saying "happy (insert day of week here)" first thing in the mornings. They wake me up, but I don't care cause I read them and they make me laugh. It'd be really cool because next year I could maybe go with him to Holland. Hell while we're at it, maybe we'll take a train to Italy.
I'm not totally over Craig, just when I think I'm ok, and everyone else thinks I'm ok, I cry again. He's leaving for the summer in exactly 2 weeks, joined the military. He always wanted to do it. So good for him, maybe he'll actually come back as a grown up.
He walked up to me in the bar the other day, drunk, and said "I'm not worried about you dating someone else, cause you probably will, but I'll come back in september and tell you I want you back and you'll drop the other guy". That's just a little bit forward. And I kind of hope he's wrong. Especially if I'm really happy.
It's been a rough couple months. It looks like it's getting better. I hope it stays that way.